Soulmates


October 28, 2015

I thought I needed to escape the congestion,
the pigeon stained sidewalks,
the silent gun shots. 


Secrets lurked within each bricked building.
I spent most nights naked on the floor of my dust-imprinted bathtub, 
feeling feelings for the first time all day. 


I barely consumed anything for two years, 
except for cheese and coffee,
the only things I craved,
the only habits I could control. 


I woke up with swollen eyelids,
and I was late for my double shift. 


Family over everything, 
and I had enough.

 
Rebounds,
rejected.
An honest friend became a lover,
effortlessly,
selflessly. 


People change from day to day. 
I was never sure about soulmates.


Does God create separated pairs who change into the same people?


The city wasn't the issue, 
ghosts still lived there.


I needed to escape myself,
the false expectations,
the irrational responsibilities. 


Answers aren't necessary, 
but forgiveness is. 


Family over everything, 
and I can't get enough. 


I was never sure about soulmates,
until now.


A married woman, 
childish and wise.


Small towns are comforting,
but my spirit is urban. 


Nothing is perfect, 
but breathing is easier,
and substance is tasteful again. 


Combinations,
hard work and patience, 
equal kindness.


Love others. 
Love yourself. 
Be loved.